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Teen Suicide – It's the Big Joyous Celebration, Let's Stir the Honeypot
All music and lyrics written by Sam Ray except “The Hurricane”, co-written with Spencer Radcliffe. Trumpet on ‘Living Proof’ played by Max Kuzmyak. Additional vocals on ‘Living Proof’ provided by Sean Mercer. Drums on ‘Living Proof’ played by Sean Mercer. Additional vocals on ‘The Big Joyous Celebration’ provided by Harmony Tividad, David Courtright, Neil Sanzgiri, Alec Simke, Kinsey Matthews, Elizabeth Sea, Owen Pallett, Josephine Ray, Spencer Radcliffe, Sean Mercer, John Toohey, and Caroline White. Additional Guitar on ‘Alex’ provided by John Toohey. Drums on ‘Alex’ played by Sean Mercer. Bass on ‘Alex’ played by Alec Simke. Additional Vocals on ‘Violets’ provided by Harmony Tividad. Additional percussion on ‘Obvious Love’ provided by Mat Cothran and Delaney Mills. Additional Vocals on ‘It’s Just a Pop Song’ provided by Lexi Williams, Caroline White, Spencer Radcliffe, and Mat Cothran. Production & drums on ‘Wild Thing Runs Free’ provided by Mat Cothran. Additional vocals on ‘Bright Blue Pickup Truck’ provided by Harmony Tividad. Additional instrumentation & production on ‘Bright Blue Pickup Truck’ provided by Dexter Tortoriello. Bass on ‘What You Want’ played by Alec Simke. Bass on ‘God’ played by Alec Simke. Drums on ‘God’ played by Eric Livingston. Additional vocals on ‘God’ provided by Caroline White. Additional vocals on ‘Neighborhood Drug Dealer’ provided by Harmony Tividad & Spencer Radcliffe. Drums on ‘Devotion’ played by Eric Livingston. Bass on ‘Devotion’ played by Alec Simke. Additional vocals on ‘I Don’t Think It’s Too Late’ provided by Madeline Ava.
Drums on ‘Long Way Down’ played by Sean Mercer. Additional vocals, keyboards, drums, lyrics, and all horns on ‘The Hurricane’ provided by Spencer Radcliffe.
All songs recorded by Sam Ray except ‘Living Proof’, ‘Alex’, and ‘Long Way Down’, all recorded, engineered, and mixed by Sean Mercer.
Thank you to everyone involved and everyone who helped in any way.

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Track Name: Living Proof
a steady check, my old dead pets,
a well lit room with soothing off white walls
I'm sober now, it's been a while,
everything feels like the first time
I pick a fight I know I'll lose,
a steady head since I was a kid
& if all we get is all we get then that's all we’ll get,
goddamn I guess that's it
Track Name: The Big Joyous Celebration
oh let’s stir the honeypot
depression is a construct
heaven is a package deal
you don’t need proof to know it’s real
Track Name: Alex
Alex is the best
when she wants to die
the whole world sits and waits
until she doesn't want to die
we're both only sixteen
skipping class to smoke weed
in her brother's house
we saw it on tv
and the light comes through the window and shines
off the stem of her brothers crackpipe
Alex is my friend
we meet up after school
her brother knows a guy
who can sell me lots of pills
lying on her back
she says she wants to die
then she buys a gram of coke
and she doesn’t want to die
summer storm makes for a blackened sky
I wonder where Alex is tonight
Track Name: Violets
“I dream about being with you
while you're doing the laundry
in the shade of an oak tree
you see right through me
someone calls me a liar
but I'm covered in violets
you mean the world to me
don't ever let them tell you different”
Track Name: Obvious Love
take a picture of me
in front of the tv
words besides heartbreak
today escape me

pick up your pills
at the grocery store
one pack of sugar

they're turning the bay
into a graveyard
it's the county connector
break break break
obvious love
Track Name: It's Just A Pop Song
where do your loyalties lie?
and who gets my royalty checks when I die?
I should call my lawyer, I should drink more water
I haven't been to church in a while

do you wanna come over? I've got 3 Netflix accounts
and we can watch a different show on each screen
you always see right through me, what if we wrote a movie?
how funny would that be

you know the flares they fire from sinking ships?
I haven't felt like this in a while

I guess that I should sing it
but I'm scared my heart's not in it
it's just a pop song
it's just a pop song
it feels underwhelming
do you believe in heaven?
it's just a pop song
it's just a pop song
what if I move to Boston?
should I go on Suboxone?
it's just a pop song
it's just a pop song
what do you want for dinner?
we broke up in November
it's just a pop song
it's just a pop song
Track Name: V.I.P.
I wanna be a V.I.P.
I wanna feel adored
I wanna be the most valuable player
I wanna feel like somebody’s baby

I wanna be someone’s breadwinner
I wanna know that my heart’s still in it
I wanna be somebody’s darling
would you live in a house this haunted?
Track Name: Wild Thing Runs Free
I’m bored by love
some idea of
wild thing runs free
what could it mean to me?
this is all I’ve got, it's all I've got

do a watercolor
of the cat on the front porch
how do you keep talking
when your language is dying?
this is all I've got, it's all I've got
Track Name: Bright Blue Pickup Truck
I’m in the shallow dark water again
three movies a day in bed
I’d love it if you picked me up
in your new bright blue pickup truck

afraid of the way my hands move
I think might quit my job
“Luke's coming by after work
and he's bringing some friends along"

it's a bright blue miracle
Track Name: Big Mistake
why do I make so much noise
when I want to live so quietly?
if I don’t think it should taste sweet
then it doesn’t taste like anything
it’s over – sometimes that’s all it takes
it’s over, it was a big a mistake
it’s over – sometimes that’s all it takes
it’s over, it was a big mistake
Track Name: What You Want
i'm lying in the backyard all alone
i'm lying in the sun (??) and
let the light into the house
I don't know about you (?)
maybe it's not right for me either (??)

someone will give you what you want

I don't know what I get from all of this
i don't know why I ??
maybe I'm scared of what I might find if I stop
let the light into the house
??
why do I make so much noise when I (??)
I guess it makes a lot of sense
I guess it makes a lot of sense

someone to give you what you want
Track Name: God
“I don't feel safe in the city”,
I don't feel safe in my body,
assume everything is a warning
it's raining, it's raining - it's storming
I got a text from a really old friend
they gouged out her eyes in a dream she had
she worries about premonitions
we've always been superstitious
I throw on a jacket in Edmondson
my mom stopped taking her medicine
I pick her up cigarettes & diet coke
make two more calls & I'm on the way home

with God as my witness and God as my only friend
I never thought that I'd see you around here again
with God as my witness and God as my only friend
will we be this bored when the world ends?
Track Name: Neighborhood Drug Dealer
riding bikes down the street in the rain
what do you make of his face?
looks like an old friend of mine
come to see me again
never close, we had had mutual interests
a beneficial relationship
there's jail time in the future for him
but he doesn't know about it
Nick is sick, he needs it quick
we let him fix up in the car
catching up with my old friends
that's what the holidays are for
his kid's in jail & he won't post bail
so he can sell his script
when we ask he says he went home
to see his mom for the week
but we keep going back
buying drugs from Taylor's dad
Track Name: Have a Conversation
how do I feel like my time’s not wasted
like my heart’s not breaking
every time I watch you trying
to put on your shoes,
or send a text message?
I have to tap the brakes
just to have a conversation
Track Name: Beauty
I'm waiting for you to call my name
Track Name: Pavement
it's not art unless you laugh
one of these days I'm gonna laugh
it's a long way down, I know that now
driving around while it rains
just to get out of the rain
I've got nothing on my brain
you've got a lot to say and that’s ok
I just need some time to myself these days
sing about who broke your heart
I don't believe in art
I'm not mean I've just got no time
pavement were an ok band
but you don't gotta sound like them
you were two when cut your hair came out
you've got a lot to say and that’s ok
I just need some time to myself these days
Track Name: America
you're so pretty when you look at me in the mirror
in a dimly lit room, a blood red bathroom
how old were you when you first fell out of love with the world?
where do you want to live? what do you want to be?
I want to live in a beautiful house in America
a beautiful home in America
Track Name: Devotion
write a love song once in a while
I swear it will make you feel so ordinary

cosplay at my funeral
talk to the dead

show your devotion to the things you love

the devil is a man with a big white smile
an imposing voice and a great hairstyle,
he always looks you right in the eyes
the devil is a man with a great hairstyle
a soothing voice and a perfect smile
he always looks you right in the eyes

show your devotion to the things you love
Track Name: The Things I Love Are Killing Me
all forms of desire
have left this body now
this feels so tired
white room, empty house
what if my heart's not in it?
it could happen to me
what would you do
if the things you loved were killing you?

what day will they choose
when the earth decides to cut me loose?
in an auditorium?
taking methadone with my friends?
or beside a lake with my dad in 96?
I hope I get choices
the things I love are killing me now
Track Name: Falling Out Of Love With Me
I've been here before
the same flowers for a year or more
under a sky so blue
I don't mind

in a darkened car
under a sky with no stars
I kiss you just because you want me to
I don't mind
I can't stop you falling out of love with me

slowly glowing from the bloom
let the light in to the room
lying in bed, march 26th,
you run your hands over my ribs
oh, I guess this is heaven
I can't stop you falling out of love with me
Track Name: I Don't Think It's Too Late
sleeping with you on the couch
was the best I've felt in months
you know you're my family
until the day that all my blood stops running
& my heart gives up, they find me in the bathroom tied off
or like Jason on the kitchen floor
chain lock on the door & receipts on the table
twelve unread emails
I was going through withdrawal in a mall
I threw up in the food court
waiting on a call to come through
and the more half-baked romantic part of my brain
told me that that was the thing to hold on to

is it too late?
were the best times of my life mistakes?
I owe a lot of apologies,
and I wish I’d made some of them sooner
should’ve spent more time around mountains and trees
I should've moved back out of the city
I wish I'd read more of the books I bought
unless heaven is as boring as we always thought
then I hope they let me read all of the books I brought
Track Name: Long Way Down
enjoy it while it's here cause it won't last long
if it's not the end of summer it's the angry hand of God
I'm getting pretty tired of talking you down
thought that I'd give that up by now

if you wanna come visit it's a long way down
I'd move to the city if I thought I'd make it out
but you're getting pretty tired of talking me down
I thought that you'd give that up by now

my dealer bought a car now he comes over to my house
he tried to buy my car but I told him no
so he bought another car now he comes over to my house
now I don't really need my car anymore

if you wanna come & visit it's a long way down

you're a boring kid and you're never gonna get
anything that you deserve
I know this life's gonna treat you alright
but with any luck the next one's gonna hurt
you're a spoiled kid and you're never gonna get
anything that you deserve
I know this life's gonna be just fine
but with any luck the next one's gonna hurt
Track Name: My Little World
sorrow, in my little world
please pass me over
come over me
you don't know what's done

it's all that's left
let's turn it red
let's turn it blue
I come across, looming,
trembling at the sight of you
Track Name: The Hurricane
I see your shape outlined in a darkened room
no matter where, I stare
maybe it's the world as far as I can see
little machines, whirr whirr whirring
on a cold day I can hear the sound of birds
in the speakers, singing
a hurricane, the coming hurricane
falling down and getting up again

let the water rise and be
push & shove & comfort me
come for me , you’ll come for me
spread a map for eyes that see
release the wind, release the fog
the world will be a waterfall
the rocks beneath will catch it all
Track Name: The Stomach of the Earth
will I rest my head in heaven
or will I sleep in the stomach of the earth?
I'm not afraid of what might happen
getting dressed for work
I’m crying through my haircut
deep in the stomach of the earth
a quiet day, I show up drunk
to the bank of America
the viciousness of the glee club
was legendary
the kind of thing you tell stories of
for the next few centuries
I watched the beauty
of the world condensed
tipping too much
on a twenty dollar check
Track Name: If I Don't See You Before You Leave
I can't find the book I’m reading
I don't know where I set it down
then I remember that you took it
when you left & moved out
hi love, it's been a while
since we were here

Mick Foley, Tietam Brown
one dvd, 1000 Clowns
a roll of quarters, Xanax bars
one envelope, four hundred dollars
hi love, it's been a while
since we were here

if I don't see you before you leave
take care of yourself for me
my mom told me to say hi
she doesn't care you're getting high
hi love, it's been a while
since you were here